so I pretty much got myself into this, whatever it is, and my heart is breaking and I'm crying and so tired of wanting and not getting...

Anybody wanna make me a break-up (again) playlist? Or some suggestions?


I need...a lot. IDK exactly what. Except I want him...and need him and can't have him cause he doesn't want that.


:(

Honestly, if you're tired of me or sick of hearing from me or just don't wanna deal with me anymore, let me know. It's a lot nicer than not responding to ANYTHING I text you all day.

Thanks.

:/

STAR TREK. CHRIS PINE. BOTH.


(love :D)

That may be the most random thing ever, but seriously. Like, I was looking in the mirror at them one day after a conversation (a very serious conversation about srs bsns) with Bubby and after he mentioned he likes my boobs and doesn't think they need to get any bigger...I kinda like em too.


I'd still go with D cups. C is what I got but a D would be fine too. Guess I don't need to save for that breast implant surgery I was gonna get!

On another note, and maybe this is kinda wierd and slightly personal, but...I have a kink for leather gloves. Actually, I think its a kink for a tall, lean guy in gloves period, fostered in part by Bubby and in part by Zach Quinto. I think I know what I'll get him for Christmas. ;D

am I crying and confused and longing and hurting and feeling so much and listening to Jeff Buckley's Hallelujah on repeat?

WHY?

(i need some help, seriously...It's getting really complicated with The Boy and Idk what do with myself.:/)

I'd tell him, and he knows who he is, that I'm sorry and that I love him.

I wonder if he'd believe me if I told him now. :(

I can't even fu- Okay, you know what? Yeah, I can. After living in this lousy excuse for a state that is Louisiana all my life, it doesn't take a stretch of the imagination to see how this could be okay with a lot of people, especially around here.


Is it STILL 1959?

Some people need to just go DIAF. Seriously. (On the flip side, maybe this is why you'd be hard pressed to find a white guy in this state that would go after a black woman...are white girls more open to interracial relationships, or are white guys just not attracted to black girls?) This is one of the main reasons I'm moving out of this crappy place.

Diesel Driving Academy commercial for the Ark-La-Tex area.

NOT the original, but here's the song none the less.

STAR TREK! And it was ORGASMIC.

And the ONLY complaint I have is that they didn't really give Remy a New Orleans accent. (not Cajun, Coonass, or Creole-NEW ORLEANS. They have their own damn accent.)

Other than that...:D

EPIC WIN!

Remy is my fave for a million and one reasons. He was soooo my fave in the cartoon series that used to come on. I mean, He was just so...fun!

On another note, since all the comics are turning into movies, a friend is having a big cosplay party this July, and I was wondering what black heroine could I go as (besides Storm because I'm no Halle Berry)? Ideas would be much appreciated.

I just joined LJ about a year ago, so I have only known my friends on lj for about that long. The longest (and most frequently chatted with) friend is alchemistc. We pretty much are Internet sister friends. Next in line is foxybrownsugar, and after that is probably most of the guys over at tonypepper.

It's a tie between Duck Hunt, FF7(is that old school yet?), and Tekken.

So, after our little run in with some Twitards in Walmart, my brother and I decided to make shirts proclaiming our disgust with Twilight. We haven't made his yet, but mine is finished, and I like it a bunch!

Pics after the jump.

( Say no to Twilight! )

I have this mind that if I was to ever have children, and a girl, I'd name her Renaissance. I have no idea why, but I like it as a name. And maybe even Hershey.

Soooo...I watched Watchmen today (cause I was too busy to go to the movies like a normal person before) and found that I loved it for ridiculous reasons.

Case 1: Dan Dreiberg (played perfectly by Patrick Wilson) is the best. EVER. (okay, Tony Stark has that illustrious title, but whatever) I mean, he's geeky, and sweet, and kinda sheepish and just...adorable. While also maintaining a badassery that astonishes me. I will steal him from Laurie and marry him. YES.

Case 2: I totally get Rorschach. Seriously. I mean, he's a crazy as hell vigilante with impressive skillz in beatin' booty. DOES IT GET ANY BETTER THAN THAT???

Case 3: The sex scene in the owl ship. THATISALL.

Case 4: Laurie (Silk Spectre II)'s hair. It's like something from a Pantene commercial.

Case 5: THIS: "Breaking into a maximum security prison is a little more different than putting out a fire." "You're right. It's more fun."

Case 6: The fact that they played "Unforgettable" when the Comedian was murdered.

And last but not least: Dr. Manhattan and his lack of humanity. Which saddened me on several levels.

In other Mel news: I got a new job!!!

Um...what else? I graduate in July! My sister is six months along (going on seven). I'm getting my hair cut again. Annnnnddddd...OH. This.

:D

I have a thing for music. If I think it sucks, I get mad, and I can't stand it if you force me to listen to it. (Here's looking at you, Daddy...lol!) But if it's good, well...it's near indescribably wonderful.( You say the word and I will be your man, your man )

:)

Everything about this song is how I feel about this place. Replace "Talahina" with "Many" and bingo! Just one more reason to adore KOL.

Weeds blow tall on a broken train track
Ruth B. draws we're fixin' to get high
Maybe we'll hit the bluffs and find ourselves the same old rum

But everybody says this place is beautiful
And you'd be so crazy to say goodbye
But everything's the same this town is pitiful
And I'll be gettin' out as soon as I can fly

Life goes by on a Talihina sky

The hopped up boys are lookin' for their trouble
The knocked up girls, well they've all got their share
Ruth seems out of her mind, swears she won't give in this time

You can listen to the song here:

Version 1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yXGodSE3opM
Version 2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCG8bb1bOCU

Because I heart Neal way more than I have any right to.

;D


Also, Paramore concert with No Doubt. MUST go. I don't have 80 bucks right now for the best seats in the hizzy, and income tax don't come in till probably april (my luck...) but I will try to get the moolah. I MUST GO!

Me and Boo Daddy are already tying to figure out a way to go in Houston (though I'd like to go to the one in Atlanta, only cause I miss Atlanta...) and hopefully this will pan out the way I want.

cross fingers for me?

mkaythanx!